salam, hye ols!
tonight hati aku xtenang huks, this things keep on distracting my mind , " Nobody can understand me well, No One" is it TRUE Mohd Shahril Iqbal Bin Othman? ke ko sndri yg x loose urself to let others to get know u well? why?
arghh Hati aku ntah ragu2, adakah i myself yg berperang dgn perasaan aku sndiri? Guys, huks, omg am i too ego? hate that word E.G.O ! hate it! hate it! Yup, its to obvious dat i lie to u people if theres no one who trying to understand me, yea, ada, im not gonna lie, btol, ada ! Sumpah Ada! Aku mmg trimak la, they tryg to rapat wit me, tengs a lot, but really, even yg aku syg now eyh, yg aku syg, still xboleh phm aku well. Am i too demand wit it? Am i too ego? Am i afraid to let myself tok trima org sedalam2 nya? holy syitt ~! wake up reyl! wake up DUDE! wat happen to u ? arghh
Guys, those yg kenal aku, will know dat aku jenis BUBBLY, wei kamon aku xlayan la bnda2 cmneh, EMO ol the way, hey dats not me!! NOT ME AT ALL! but im also a mankind! got feeling ol dat, Hey reyl ! fyi, ur too selfish !!! HEY! listen here, everybody want u! (im asking to myself, reallly??) hey, kamon, they do lve u, but r u greedy? tamak? org len dh bagi smua love n cnte kat ko tapi ko wat donno ?? why?? u noe why? ur tOO EGO!!! ego!!!
Omg, Allah! aku siyes mkin lama, my iman is getting weaker n weaker! makin lemah! makin sensitif! n sometimes i do let my tears come out, im so weak lately, for instance, aku always terkenang kat sape2 yg penah tggalkan aku, my fren lor,
n i really miss my frends yg lately tggalkan aku, not really "tinggalkan" la, juz makin jaoh dari hidup aku . Sory guys, i really not meant it to let u guys far apart from me >.<
i need frends! dont leave me, xtaw la sapa2 yg baca blog aku, my frend, sapa2, i love u guys, n tengs to yg close wit me now, tengs coz always trying to chill me up!, tengs ! but u still not really get to know me better . How i wish someday u really understand me coz for me ur almost there, Perfect! or adakah aku yg xsesuai dgn dia? coz aku hey BULLSHIT! talking about myself, aku sndri xtry n try my best to understand those yg close, n loves me, wat the hell was dat?? so , dkt sini, SALAH aku obviously! ego gila aku, bongok ko reyl, until when u want to be like kid yg nak dmanja, dbelai, n everythgs la?? sampai bila reyl!
WAKE UP~ U Will turn to 20 next month! come on, ur an adult now dude! wake up call,! omg omg~ i really need to semangat la, rel come on, jgn goyah, ingt tuhan,! ko dah berubah reyl. berubah, did u remmber, ur schools mates before, saying dat ur changing oredy, ur not the same reyl dat they like, ur diff now, Mohd Shahril Iqbal, do u want dat? no rite? huhu,
guys, sometimes when i bring up my ego with me, i feel lonely >.< Nobody is there wit me, No one, i let myself down, n termenung smua . Now wit my attitude, ramai yg gonna think dat , fuhh mmg poyo abis mamat ya,mmg rasa kacak, sa best, smua la. But wat i know is, i just being myself n sory if korang xsuke perangai aku, yeay im tryg to change dat but not fully changd.How sad ~
so Now, biarla, aku try la , atleast everyone around me happy wit me. Yes i want them to alwys be happy wit me, Thats my vow . adoi, i cant believe dat i feel so much relieve once i read ol of this, Tengs to BLOG! tengs so much~
now i need to rest, wit my tears ol over my face, cis, cengeng ko reyl! >.< malu doe! HAHA,
oke salam n nytes guys ;) mwah ::